Monday

From parents, learnt that there will be a family gathering tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the memory day for the left of my grandma, eight years or maybe nine years already.
Today I felt a bit down, seems ten years has passed since grandma's left, but still remember her grey hairs, she laid in bed and uncles discussed her funeral before her.
My two uncles also left. One in the last year, and one in this year.

Right now I felt pretty lonely, and sometimes strongly blame myself that I should have focused on studying, that I should not have wanted to cry.

Life is not easy. We struggled, we took the burden of worry, sadness and pain.

I hate writing...